Do I still want to go with Jesus?


What do you sense the Lord saying to you in this passage?

“The disciples were astonished, while those who followed were afraid.” (Mark 10:32)
Jesus is leading his followers into the battlezone, where trouble awaits them.
Instead of hiding or running, Jesus is doing what God tells him to do.
Even if it means difficulty, suffering, and even death.
Following Jesus still leads us into uncomfortable or difficult situations.
Jesus wants us to love sinners, but what will our friends think?
Jesus wants us to be generous with the poor, but what will our family say?
Jesus wants us to forgive those who hurt us, but what about our own feelings?
It is natural for disciples then and now to be astonished.
It is understandable that followers are afraid to follow Jesus’s way.
But Jesus is not calling us to choose suffering, he is calling us to choose love.
Love is the better way, and it is the only way that our world can be restored.
Our world needs the Jesus way, and it needs us to choose it even when it is hard.
Do I really believe that the Jesus way is the only true way to life?
Do I still want to go with Jesus, even if it means going to Jerusalem?
Lord, like many people I like the idea of being saved. But the path there is an unsettling and frightening. Keep my eyes on your love, and not on the suffering. Show me how people will be blessed, and I will find joy, when I continue to walk with you towards Jerusalem.


  1. A disciple lived as Jesus did. They were with Him at all times. They followed Him everywhere.
    Jesus is preparing them for the hardship ahead. The cost of discipleship. Walking with the Master costs.
    And yet we desire to be with Him, not knowing what lies ahead. But He will be there to strengthen and guide us along the way if we but trust and obey. I need to walk with Him in all I do and say this day.

    Make me a servant
    Humble and meek
    Lord let me lift up
    Those who are weak
    And may the prayer
    Of my heart always be
    Make me a servant
    Make me a servant
    Make me a servant today

  2. As I child living in a small village – I knew who to avoid – especially the bullies in the village. Often I could see trouble in the distance and I would do my best to avoid it. I never liked conflict and still have a tendency to want to avoid it. But that is not always good. I need to stand up for what is right and do what is right and just. Following Jesus, I need to know where, when and how to confront and how to respond to the need around me. Being a follower of Jesus means I am going to meet conflict – I can’t run and hide or disown who I am in Christ. Help me Lord to follow you – even when in the face of conflict. You did and did not shy away!

  3. I think sometimes the longer I am a Christian the easier it is for me to look less like a Christian. My faith becomes a tradition, routine; I follow for the sake of being a follower. I ask myself when I read this passage am I the disciple who follows, being astonished by Jesus even in the face of persecution and struggle, or am I a follower, too afraid to see what God has in store? It is so easy to focus on the suffering and negative happening around us, making our walk with God feel all the more difficult. Lord, enable me to be a follower passionate, brave, and hopeful in the face of adversity. Remind me that my “sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to” me (Romans 8:18). Help me to focus on your blessings, and your greater plan, even when I cannot see or understand it. I want to press on and follow you with a joy unspeakable!

  4. Lord give me the courage to follow despite my fear and astonishment. I am easily daunted and need your strength to continue following your path.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *